Original Song Lyrics

by Emily Carson '05

"Apologize"

Why do I keep searching for something of worth,
when the most valuable thing that I could ever have,
I already own?
Why do I look so long for something to sustain me,
When the giver of this life has already provided me with this breath to say:

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I apologize,
for putting you in second place,
or any other place,
than right where you belong.
You are my provider.
You are my love.
You are my number one.

Why do I keep dreaming of these things that do not matter,
when the only dream that I should ever have is to serve you at your throne?
Why do I look elsewhere for my comfort and my shelter,
when the only place that I should ever look is directly at your cross.

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You are everything and anything
that I could ever truly need.

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"Apprehension"

You can take this for whatever it's worth,
if you don't want to look then you can turn away.
It's just that I've been sorting this out in my mind,
and I think I have some things to say.

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I thought it was love
and I was wrong.
I thought it was real
but it was off.
It seemed like fate was falling into place,
but I must've been mistaken.
If it was right,
you would've said different things tonight,
and I wouldn't feel this apprehension.

I'm not trying to offend you.
In fact, your best interests are at the heart of my concern.
I guess I thought that maybe things could work with you,
but in retrospect I see that can't be true.

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I don't know how my judgment got so impaired,
and I'm not sure why I continue to care.
But I do,
and I want what's best for you,
and in retrospect.......

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Verse 1 again





"Forever"

Just when I was about to quit the race,
about to find another way to make it in the world.
You found me in my hiding place,
and you lifted me up,
and you dusted me off as you said:

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"I know every word that you ever spoke,
and I love you anyway.
I know every step that you ever took,
and I love you just the same.
I'm your father above,
and I'm here and I love you for the long run,
forever,
and when you feel weak,
I'll strengthen you with my love.
You're my treasure forever."

I'm falling apart as I learn that it's more than okay to fall,
and to make mistakes,
You've already paid all my bills,
and you've covered the cost of my infinite shame,
and still you say....

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It doesn't make much sense to me,
that even when we fail you,
you love us infinitely.
You suffered and died,
and I wish I could completely understand why.
When you were so good,
and you were so true,
you did what you did out of love,
and not just something that you had to do,
and even to this day, you still always find a way,
to remind us of your everlasting love.

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Emily Carson is an English major at Wartburg College.